HUH!! R u serious...

Nigga you hype yourself up soo much had my mind wondering about your touch... Then you failed me... On the real your kisses had my sweetness ready to erupt.. Yearning for your stroke...
Moving this way, falling that way, twisting and flipping... Dry grinding like we in highschool... OH MY GOSH I just knew you knew what to do...

Huh... You had me fooled..

Your head action was the bomb. Had me squirting all over the place... But hey what can I say Im "Juicy" to the core...
Ripping the clothes off... Throwing them on floor...The length and width in order... At that point I was begging for more... Hand running though my hair, your tongue caressing my neck.. You straight pretended that you were the BEST!!!!!

Huh... R u serious!!!  Get the Fuck out of here!!!!

You bent me over put my big ass in your face and 2minutes later you were sleep like a babe..

Nigga R U SERIOUS!!! Wasted my time and my energy that I could have used on the one that knew me...

I need a strong back and long stroke.. Not a 2 min kid.. What the fuck you thought this was...
I dont have time if you can't tame this pussy... Where the hell is KT!!!!!

MY Truths....

The truth is I never really let you out of my heart... A piece you've owned from the start...
The truth is the pain you caused broke me for awhile... A love from another I never really allowed...

The truth is that your kisses open my senses.... Your touch is like fire against my soul...
The truth is I could never have you... So I have to let you go...

The truth is I love my husband... But I haven't really given myself to him
The truth is the baggage Im carrying.... I haven't open one bag to clean it..

The truth is its time to fix me... So I will close my eyes and open my ears to HIM... 

Lost...

Your tears make my heart bleed.. You lost you son, she lost her husband, he lost his twin, they lost their brother.... Your tears is the pain of your past, your present, your dreams you had and love you lost.

I listen to your words but I feel your heart. Its heavy... Its sad.... Its in turmoil... You cant be strong right now.. Let me be strong for you. As your friend use my shoulder as your pillow, my shirt as your tissue... I love you.. Im here..

Let God be your strength and He will hold you up.

Remembering Me

Today I learned a new song. I walked differently. I smiled more. My emotions are soaring with love walking though the door. Today I realized that yesterday is gone along with the problems and the pain that it brought. Today is a new day. With new decisions to make.

My choices will be the things that I want and need... The places that want to go.. The life that I want to live. No more will I allow you to destroy my dreams, my happiness, my peace and my love.

I will remember me and introduce me to me again. I will date me and fall in love with me again. And this time I will work daily to keep my relationship with me.  No more will I allow you to tempt me to breakup with me again. How dare you try to destroy me? How dare I allow you to?

God spoke to me and told me who I was a long time ago. Im more than a mother of 5, more than a wife, more than the "reliable" friend, more than the door mat that I placed myself in. I am ME Fiercely Made in my Father image.

Anger

The fire.... The rage.... The incomplete statements that I refuse to make. The new words that I can form with only a few letters. Thoughts that are running with the devil name attached to them... The signature of death. Anger

The truth is seen inspite of my angry eyes. The truth of where your heart lies.